Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's out there! I hope that every mom was shown the love they deserve today.

Today is still a bittersweet day for me, as I believe it always will be. I did enjoy spending the night with my beautiful family, but I guess I will always have the pain of loosing Gabe, which is multiplied on days like these. I know that today is a bittersweet one for many. Not just those who have lost a child, but also for those who have had miscarriages, those who want a baby and can't have one, and those who have lost a mom or significant woman in their lives. As you enjoy your day and honor the special women in your life, remember to say a little prayer, or do something nice for those who may find today a little tougher. For those of you who have suffered a loss: my thoughts are with you all.

I had to spend the majority of this weekend in a classroom :( I'm not sure why they thought it would be a good idea to hold it this weekend, but I had to attend a food safety class to apply for my food managers license. It was 8am-5pm both days! Nate took me out last night for dinner to celebrate Mother's Day and gave me two gorgeous quilts made with both my babies pictures on them! I will post a some pictures later! They are definitely one of the best gifts I've ever received! I also got a very beautiful little garden stone from my mother-in-law, and many cards and messages that I appreciate more than I could ever say! Even though I don't have both my babies here on earth, I still believe there is nothing better than being a mommy.

Exploring the outdoors

A quote to share

"My child, you are a miracle borrowed from another world. Like the breath inside of me, you will stay a part of me. Winds of change, love will bring us closer, far from tears, fears and dangers, my love will be there by your side. You taught me the love that I never knew. You made me realize the things that the world has let me forget. In you, I discover so much of life and the preciousness of love. You are the reason I have been kept on my knees and I could never thank you enough for giving me a reason to believe."

by Natalia Visagie

Day at the park

Getting creative; who needs toys?!

Trying new things!

Having Fun!

We seem to be having these few gorgeous days sandwiched between colder ones. I've been taking Ayla outside on the warmer ones to let her test her new found walking skills. She has a hard time making her way over the rougher surfaces but loves trying! I think I have has much fun as she does....I love being a mommy ;)

One of those days

I saw this today and thought it was appropriate for the mood I'm in....

Today's Agenda:

1. Get Up
2. Survive
3. Go To Bed

Happy Easter

Happy Easter everyone! I hope everyone enjoyed the day :)

We went up to see my family in Massachusetts for an easter egg hunt which was a lot of fun. Ayla found a couple of eggs and was quite content with them. She tried her first bits of candy and LOVED it, of course what girl doesn't like chocolate?! We also were able to meet the newest addition to the family, Chloe (my cousin Jasons baby girl) who was absolutely adorable! It's crazy to see a whole new generation of babies together :)

On the way home we stopped and visited Gabe. I've been picking up a lot of little things to bring to his site, which is already overflowing with things. It makes me feel good to have it well decorated, especially for the holidays. I miss my little boy and wish he was here to celebrate the holidays with us. I can't believe this is our 3rd easter without him. It really doesn't ever get easier, I guess there are some wounds time can't heal.

Here are some pictures from the day:

I can't help it.....I just think she's so darn cute!

One of the amazing things about kids is that they are extremely entertaining to just sit back and watch. Or at least Ayla is :)

This was amusing. She was singing to her socks, that she proudly removed from her feet, while sitting on her toy school bus... backwards and with the seat up so that her butt was in the storage compartment.


Ayla decided she wanted to talk to Daddy. The whole conversation consisted of her screaming
"DA DA DA DADADA DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!" and then throwing the phone. I guess Dada didn't talk back.